Two secrets, an unbreakable bond . . . a powerful and heartbreaking love letter to a life-changing friendship, from award-winning author, Stewart Foster. 

I wish you were here, because maybe this isn’t a story, or a diary. Perhaps it’s just the longest thank you letter a friend could ever write.

As the summer before college begins, Jonas is hiding a secret. He suffers with bulimia, but no one knows. Not even he knows how bad it really is. Until he meets Louis, a confident dreamer who believes in a better future for Jonas and together they enjoy a sun-kissed summer filled with music, memories and life-changing moments. But when tragedy strikes, Jonas must decide if he has the strength to face things alone . . . 

Writing from personal experience, an award-winning author shines an important light on difficult themes of illness, mental health, and grief in a redemptive story of friendship, for readers of Meg Rosoff and Sarah Crossan.

Warning: contains some themes that readers may find upsetting, including disordered eating.